And I'm missing my piggy baby so much for unknown reasons that tears kept welling in my eyes when I thought of him L

Why am I always asking myself if I'm happy or not?

I'm feeling tired of being relied on, I need a reliance myself, but where is it? No wonder my heart is always feeling heavy, I have too many burdens with me that I can't release them away.

Why am I being emo again? bcos when I just only need that 1 person in the way to fully understand me and stand with me, we're always like the north and south pole repelling. How long do I need to change myself to be the same pole as you, and always attracting tightly with you…I think it'll take eternity…

How to experience happiness when all I'm living is for others but myself….FO

Wtf….it's a working Thursday and it's just 10.14am….and boredom has started to roll on at work….i have a whole day to spare now….i need Buddha to enlighten me…what the hell is meaning to life

Life sux

I only wanted them to be happy…I only wanted to give what they want to them…but I tried too hard L

I thought the night will be ended on a happy note with genuine craps with my beloved friends, but the night ended badly…and sadly, that I had a restless night, half asleep and half dreamy…

Then morning broke the sky…I dragged my weary body and eyes out of bed…and holding on to the lost and heavy heart, afraid that it'll only sink further…

Got out of the house calmly without any words

Had to cancel lunch appt but in the end, still lunch alone…

Started to wander around, and for the first time, tried on a nice dress in the shops that I kept walking in all the time…and in the end, kena 'scolded' for trying but not buying L

Scalded my own finger while eating claypot noodle

Knocked onto my thigh while walking around in office…

I think I will have a very bad xmas…not that I care if I do have a xmas or not in the first place…but I just don't feel good anymore because ppl I care, did not make me feel that they care for me either…

I just wanna go home now and sleep to another day that will probably repeat itself again L

I really hate my job…when can I get freed? Or when can I even have close ones support at all…I want to fly ard the world L

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I'm fuckingly displease with my current job…how I wish I can just pack and go off now L

I've always been saying I wanna quit….but finally for the first time this morning…I feel like throwing letter right away…. L

Bored to death…